8:58 p.m. x 2002-09-25
...it desereves to be seeing as how i've had it in my head for over a month now
i'm a little scared.
according to sara i'm "selfish", but i feel far more scared than i do selfish. if this was a selfish feeling then it wouldn't have anything to do with someone other than me...would it??? it's like a repeat of what happened with me and manda...someone i feel really strongly about i don't want anything to mess up, but no this is a "selfish" feeling.
i guess i don't like it when people barge in on good things. it takes me a while to make friends and other people can do it in days.
i still don't believe in my ability to make friends
and i'm still scared.
if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
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sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
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