i sit here drinking pennyroyal tea to distill the life that's inside me

8:38 p.m. x 2002-10-23

good news everyone (she says to an empty room)! my grad project...*dramatic drum rolls*...HAS BEEN OKAYED!!!

YAAAAY!!! k@ri can now write her short-story collection ^-^. everything's planned out perfectly...i'm so ecstatic, i may just get up and do my loser dance.

awe what the hell *does the loser dance*.

hmm...today was alright. in fact my week was pretty good as far as school weeks go, "it soooo did not suck". jaypea was excited today because he didn't have to take the PSATs to get into the art college he wants to go to. that kinda reminded me (kinda @_@ merr...i'm a lazy sod), i may want to look at college stuff.

i was talking to my mom about graduation and said that after highschool, i was gonna go with manda and britt to LA. stupidly euphoric as it sounds, the big plus is that it's very very far from where we are right now. i mentioned that jaypea was going to an art college in philadelphia and now she's all over that, looking up information on the options there.

honestly...i think her plan is to visit for christmas and bring a bunch of gifts and cookies, then pretend to get lost and go to jaypea's apartment/dorm and give him everything and call me saying she got caught in traffic @_@.

she would, too. she would.

anyhoo...back to my week. sara and i are back on good terms (i stole her *true love*...hehehehe, it's perfumed body rub and it tastes fucking awful *blah*). manda and i had fun, brittany was tired and experienced a minor dustin-induced episode (but no breaking-up this week! woohoo!!!!), and rachel kissed ryan and pinched the asses of the public whenever they were availible to her.

"mr. z" had departed from our class for a few days, wednesday and thursday precisely, and we had mr. wingert (CHICKEN WING!) in his place. the first day, we watched the beginning of a movie (which i don't remember a thing about @_@), and while everyone else did that, i sang myself *jolene*, *dead leaves and the dirty ground*, *soda dreamer*, and *jane says*. jaypea slept and it was aaawe...i don't give a damn about the other ones: THEE wonder of the world his jaypea curled up asleep on the floor of the geometry room. babies don't look that calm and cute ^-^. then on thursday he, tweak and i sat around and acted retarded, and he slept for fifteen minutes, blissfully peaceful and adorable curled into his own little world. then i had to wake him up ^-^;;; that was almost painful, he looked so happy sleeping!!! then we hugged...he smells like SUNSHINE goddammit!!! today "mr. z" came back and i got a whopping 8/20 on my quiz ^-^ YAAAY FOR K@RI...*ugh*. i'm not an academic individual. school's too misanthropic for me.

i'm listening to acid bath's *the bones of baby dolls*, and it's insanely, achingly pretty...i think i'll post it here:

THE BONES OF BABY DOLLS
acid bath

flower girls play lover
grave games in the courtyard
i heard her screaming like a radio
flower girls play lover
grave games in the courtyard
i heard her screaming like a radio
mary lou left marks on you
she just screams at the walls
the kite string pops
i'm swallowed whole by the sky
we smoke the bones of baby dolls
techno-liquid screaming meat
heaven's cold beneath my feet
cyber love the anti-man
we make love because we can
virgins play where the bayou's blue
barefoot and bloody eatin' mushroom stew
work for pay and pay for freedom
fuck 'em all we don't need 'em
we smoke the bones of baby dolls
...everything's gone dry
like bottle glass scraping cross the pavement
everything's gone dry
like bottle glass scraping cross the pavement
everything's gone dry
like bottle glass scraping cross the pavement
everything's gone dry
like bottle glass scraping cross the pavement...

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)

anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
KL 02-11