You gave me hyacinths first a year ago. They called me the hyacinth girl.

song of the day: *after hours* by the velvet underground

and now for the lyrics...

if you close the door
the night could last forever
keep the sunshine out
and say hello to never
all the people are dancing
and they're havin such fun
i wish it could happen to me
but if you close the door
i'd never have to see the day again
if you close the door
the night could last forever
leave the wineglass out
and drink a toast to never
oh someday i know someone
will look into my eyes
and say hello --
you're my very special one--
but if you close the door
i'd never have to see the day again
dark cloudy bars
shiny cadillac cars
and the people on subways and trains
looking gray in the rain
as they stand disarrayed
all the people look well in the dark
and if you close the door
the night could last forever
leave the sunshine out
and say hello to never
all the people are dancing
and they're having such fun
i wish it could happen to me
cause if you close the door
i'd never have to see the day again
i'd never have to see the day again
i'd never have to see the day again

*le sigh*

today was boring thusfar. but it promises (here at 6 o'clock in the evening) to get better. rachee's spending the night and so that gives me a chance to burn off my retard-energy.

i went shopping today and stocked up for xmas. i hate shopping with my mom. shopping with mom = fucking bloody hell. all the woman does is go "oh i bet you'd love that!" and "oh that looks nice!" and then she goes to pay for it and screams about the cost.

fuck money. i hate it. and we're not even excessively poor or rich - we're financially normal and already i'm disillusioned by cash.

hmm...what did i get at the mall...

VHS

*ginger snaps*lost highway*donnie darko*kids*gummo*cruel intentions*the shining*

CDs

*white blood cells*scarlett's walk*40 licks*sierra hotnights*drain sth*

BOOKS

*queer*mysterious skin*brave new world*kafka's complete stories*

i know there was more, but my brain's completely frizzled from the screaming and arguing. i also got the new issue of *mojo* with the beatles on the cover.

*note to self* - get subscription to *mojo*

it had a "hard days night" poster ^-^ oh yeah - i got the new "hard days night" too. i'd like to get "yellow submarine" as well soon. that's the best song ever written. period.

i think i may have gotten *the best of the doors*. i hope i did. i honestly don't remember now. there was a lot of me having to put stuff back -_- ugh...and i'm pretty sure that was one of them. fuck.

AGH - damn i forgot to look for *the best of etta james*. oh well - save that for internet shopping. merrr.

i want a job. i'm making jaypea quit friendly's so he can come work with me at wherever i work over the summer. that way i can cover for his lazy little ass while he sleeps in a storage room.

on a final note...i got the cutest thing from hot topic. a little patchwork kitty cat. i love it to death - i think i may steal it from the gift-closet ^-^.

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
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