now i'll play god because god never loved me this much

3:22 p.m. x 2002-12-10

am i the only one not out to randomly bruise psyches and humiliate people just for fun?!
am i the only one not interested in starting an argument with everyone i know?!
am i the only one who feels bad when someone gets judged for something STUPID?!
am i the only one who believes that you don't have to look like j.lo to be loved or fucked?!
am i the only one who feels like they're WASTING TIME?!
am i the only one who really WANTS a good education but feel like school is FUCKING THEM OVER?!
AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO FEELS ON THE VERGE OF A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN?!?!

goodi goodi.

religion is fucked,
school is fucked,
the government's fucked,
entertainment's fucked...

...who says 'fuck the system?'. the system's fucking you.

*phew* - that's out of my system. my day has sucked really really bad. i found out that i have a bitterly low grade in both french and english (english especially @_@ 56%, french 76% i think). i think my geometry's a 79%. that's so good for me. i feel messed-up, i've never done that bad before and not really cared. i don't care that i'm not passing english, all i care is that if i repeat it, i don't want it with that awful sod again. i really wouldn't like another year of french (this is my last if i pass!!!), so...yeah. no more francais. PLEASE.

i've never done that awful in english. i've always liked writing and been good at vocabulary but we have to do big paragraphs in the space of 2 days, nobody gets those in, everyone fails the tests, and he doesn't give a shit. he likes to make everyone feel like losers. he hates the weird girls. yeah, i say quite specifically offbeat-looking girls he doesn't like. maybe he never had a hag growing up. well, there's a reason...you're an asshole.

on the pitifully small lighter note, i have added miss nicole's weblog and diary to the *reading* section to your right (over there -->), she's really cool ^-^ i like her. ah yes, and on a much BIGGER lighter note which almost makes up for the badness...JAYPEA IS NOW A LEGAL DRIVER!!!!!!!!!

*breaks out the vodka and kazzoos*

...and now for something completely different @_@ sort of...*hush*...i offer you these two quiz results, deeper insight into my personality (ah yes - one can tell so much about one from a quiz concerning your inner male)

Robert%20Smith
Which sexy boy are you

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You're%20Jack!
Who's your inner gay man?

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if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)

anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
KL 02-11