where there's no way out

4:12 p.m. x 2003-08-20

so...things have been bad lately. quite bad - i've been up till 8 every night. some behaviors have resumed that i was better off without, and i'm about to plunge right back into a place that will fail to do anything but perpetuate every issue i stand to possess.

i never minded school education-wise. i don't mind learning at all. it's something else all together. something that i can't escape in summer but just worstens being dragged back into prison every day. and i'm scared. i can't do this again with no help to speak of. i don't know how one helps this. i don't know what to do about the conclusion my therapist and i came to.

*UGH and other random sounds of frustration* - the world owes it to me to improve FAAAST.

...and now, i must go practice reading "rapunzel" by anne sexton so that the elderly greek woman can understand me tonight...

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)

anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
KL 02-11