mne nuzhna ona!

1:38 p.m. x 2003-09-29

YAAAAYYY!!! 'twas officially manda's 17th birthday today ^-^.

i don't know what was good about today - but today was good. i walked about in a haze of russian chirping as i was consistantly bombarded by the little lot of lovelies. mer, if only life were more like a sitcom. i think my friends and i are do for one of those unexplainable plot devices where we're all thrown into another country for a visit and wackiness ensews. seriously. pop us in a cute little italian villa for a romantic adventure (paul and his toaster at the bistro), or a suspicious train headed to the north shore of britain where a gripping mystery threatens the basic fabrics of boredom and weaves them into something of a LIFE for the little people such as us, stranded in redneck wonderland.

maybe an alien (a la "the flintstones") will visit us and start granting kara wishes at random, or we'll all be sent into space and josh will become a monkey, but tweak would be mysteriously replaced by some lesser known c-rate tweak. no matter how you look at it, our lives need a plot device.

meh, we're ignoring the bigger picture: ALL OF APPALACHIA NEEDS A PLOT DEVICE. rather, i'd like to not live in a place that must create a plot device in order to be interesting. new york doesn't need a plot device to be interesting because it IIIIISS interesting. there is nothing interesting about a walmart and some surrounding communities that all worship around it, running about in a crazy "andy griffith show" meets "deliverance" frenzy.

*breaths* ah, but i'm a junior. my time here is very nearly up, and then i'm free to pursue life beyond the walmart walls. do you see how instrumental a WALMART is to this place?!?! *ugh*. i can't wait to be an adult in a better place, curled into a little couch in my little apartment with my record player humming "america" by simon & garfunkel and reading a psychology book and petting my plaster cast of tweak (or, at best, smiling at the little framed picture of her, as well as everyone/anyone else i really want to remember from the shithole). adulthood looks so promising when you don't look at my adolescents.

i'm going to go watch "mathilda" now <3 EVENING everybody.

ZACHEM YA
tatu

lena
skazhi, zachem ya zhdu zvonka
zachem nemye oblaka
plyvut ko mne izdaleka i tayut
zachem lyubov' kosnulas' nas
zachem khochu tebya seichas ne znayu
yulia
ya zvezda, ty zvezda
nas prikazano szhech
kto-to sdal i dostal
adresa nashikh vstrech
potolki po glazam
i nikto ne naidet
soskol'znut golosa
i slomaetsya led
i nich'ya bez klyucha
i mogila postel'
i pora vyklychat'
i oni na khvoste
ulybnis', razvyazhi
zanaves' zerkala
razorvi, i skazhi
umerla, umerla
zamykai i lizhi
stanovis' nikakoi
i ruka ne drozhit
vse v poryadke s rukoi
mozhno mstit'
vajdi dva
na taksi i sosi
a prostit' nikogda
nikogda ne prosi
khorosho, khorosho
ya pridumala mest'
poroshok vse chto est'
umnozhayu na shest'
ne zvoni, ne zvoni
ya ustala, ya ustala
ya tebya ne khochu
ty menya
lena
skazhi, zachem ya zhdu zvonka
zachem nemye oblaka
plyvut ko mne izdaleka i tayut
zachem lyubov' kosnulas' nas
zachem khochu tebya seichas ne znayu
yulia
nikogda nichego
nichego ne nachat'
nikogda nikogo
umirat' i molchat'
ne iskat', ne lyubit'
ne zhalet', i ne spat'
nikogda, nikuda
nikogo ne puskat'
ne vdvoem. i ub'em
im prisnit'sya voda
ne tvoe. ne moe
provoda. provoda
geroin. pulsa net
tol'ko ty ne pri chem
abonent otklyuchen
lena
skazhi, zachem ya zhdu zvonka
zachem nemye oblaka
plyvut ko mne izdaleka i tayut
zachem lyubov' kosnulas' nas
zachem khochu tebya seichas ne znayu

...ya ustala, ya ustala, ya tebya ne khochu ty menya...
*BEEP*

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)

anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
KL 02-11