11:54 p.m. x 2003-11-08
perfectly fine day, really - was kindly given "magnolia" by clare (<3) and had a lovely time doing the consessions thing etc. etc. but somehow - and not for anything anybody did, i was overcome by a very random bought of what can only be described as an intense, immediate sensation of wanting to destroy everything within a radius of fifty miles on all sides of myself. and it was hard to supress.
this was followed by a severe tightening in my chest and dizziness that's still messing me up a bit. i'm exhausted now and feeling very beaten-up and sad, which is very rude of me because it's been a lovely couple of days.
but now my eyes burn, and if i want to do anything tomorrow i need to bathe and get a solid evening's sleep to make up for the many hours i'll undoubtedly lose over the next week.
and i LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE youknowwho, especially alex, who got me an xmas gift. we must get together soooooooon! i promise it will not be painful!
if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start