2:56 p.m. x 2004-11-12

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i know there are people i feel wonderful and beautiful around but YOU MAKE ME FEEL AWKWARD AND UNCOORDINATED AND UGLY AND SOOO ILL AT EASE I'M SUFFICIENTLY SHOCKED THAT I LIKE BEING AROUND YOU AT ALL and sooo much more so, a THOUSAND TIMES more so that i would pursue you to speak to you (and i think, really, it would be an expenditure of energy for anybody to NOT feel ugly next to you). i DON'T want to feel this way about you, especially concidering the evident conflict of feelings.

so let's start over. "hey, i know you..."

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crazy kenzie party next week to look foreward to. ugh, you know what? go back to number 1.

i will need to have a violent, lurid marathon of nudity-laden c-rate giallo to get rid of the SHAME.

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
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sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)