i wonder a lot about how when i moved here my parents thought, after they realized i wasn't a great mixer, maybe i should go to a school that stressed the arts more. i was thinking today about how much that would've sucked. even more so than going where i presently go.
i would've started doing obscene things and gotten kicked out.
paranoia hangs rather unflatteringly over my head at all times. today i saw a masonic lodge and talked nonstop about it in my optomitrist's office.