i shiver & shake when i think of how you make me hate

4:24 p.m. x 2005-06-07

i arrived at the scene and got on the bus and we went down to maryland to the theme park, and jordan & i were coasterbuddies and we rode them all day. also, we flew, which was one of the coolest things i've ever done. we were harnessed together and spung from the highest point and then freed over the park. i LOVED it, even though the park was very ghetto and some rides were closed. i didn't participate on the ride to dinner, if you will (i passed out). i also looked more like shit than i've ever looked in my life. i didn't burn which puzzles me...

we passed a roadside pointing us towards annapolis and i almost cried. i DID cry when we hit baltimore but nobody saw. and i realized i carry a lot of baggage with maryland stickers on it.

dessert was the best part of dinner, and then i was seized by a monster headache and had to bow out of activities. i went onto the upper deck and was alone for a while. i felt extremely lonely in exactly the way i did on this specific day in freshman gym, when i was allowed to sit out because i was missing my...

...i guess something i need to function properly.

i sat on the bus with jordan, amanda b., blake, marissa and erin, and that was sooo much fun i cannot describe. it was very relaxed somehow, even when there was tension. it was that, i think, nobody could take anyone too seriously that we couldn't do anything about it tomorrow.

my brother got handprints all over the phone. he has a paper route and he's been getting handprints all over everything.

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)

anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
KL 02-11