make the decision to force the incision

6:23 p.m. x 2005-09-30

i'm very much on a restrictive diet right now. it's going good. it goes a lot better when i'm busy. today after i got home from school i threw on a nice bra, a slip & stockings and ran around my room cleaning to "sexplosion!" and it felt great. i wrote a bunch of lyrics at school and made a graphic for kara's band. i'm feeling really motivated. i'm trying not to get discouraged. but...discouraged? wait a minute - how could i be discouraged?!?!!!

THE MOST WONDERFUL THING HAPPENED TODAY! i saw my coworker at school, and we talked. and that...that was sooo cooool. and jonpaul is fun to hang out with in the morning, and i love driving in with alex, and i love driving home with paul, and...agh! THE GENITORTURERS ARE PLAYING NEAR MY SCHOOL! AAAAGH!

*fansounds*

my dad still isn't good but he's improved over the other day. my face isn't exactly exploding again as much as i think i'm constructed like a lost wax sculpture and i'm now secreting out of my encasing...i shudder...

{...yesterday was your birthday...}

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)

anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
KL 02-11