a rush of panic and the lock has been raped: this is only a game, this is only a game

10:27 p.m. x 2007-06-12

slightly beset with ideas about where to steer the focus of my studies. studies slash actual career intentions. i feel a funny, supersticious sense of foreboding as i realize i may qualify to have nearly completed a minor in philosophy without even meaning to. that's like...i was meant to be useless, and it was going to evidence itself no matter what.

gah.

i know i'll do fine. there's plenty more people far more stupid than i making a decent living. i just need to channel my greatness properly.

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)

anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
KL 02-11