11:32 a.m. x 2009-02-09

currently listening to: "spanish death song" by the builders & the butchers

i am in an exhausting place mentally. i hate the essay i'm writing. i think it highlights all the traits about myself i'm most at odds with right now. i have so much to do i'm on the fence about coming home this weekend even though i'd like to. i'd like to socialize and see friends but i don't even feel all right with myself enough to do that. i believe i have a counseling appointment this week but A) i hate that dude, B) i have misplaced the card, and C) now that i have this internship, i may not be able to make it.

i am in the library because i wanted to get away from the temptation of my music library and the internet.

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
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sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)