You gave me hyacinths first a year ago. They called me the hyacinth girl.

currently listening to: "the pawnbroker" by pram

having been investigating doctoral programs in addition to MFAs (since there are not so many creative writing phD programs out there anyway), i have been thinking about a requirement at least one if not a few of them have, and that is that the thesis be relevant and must in some way advance the world of literature. not only must it be good it must be beneficial. since i am only now past the point over obsessing about ideas and am concentrating on and taking seriously how to convey them well and impressively - that is exciting me, thank goodness, and not scaring or discouraging me. i am glad to have become interested in literature (as opposed to so many people i know who only like something on certain topics or because of the craft and the craft alone) because of its challenging aspects.

i am thinking about using burroughs and/or nabokov as my form & theory subjects. i am really excited about writing that paper. and being a graduate student!

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)