alone around people

9:50 p.m. x 2010-08-28

currently listening to: "first orgasm" by the dresden dolls

i did not work today. i went to philadelphia with manda and we stopped every few feet and she took a picture and i talked. we were there for a convention - it was small but adequate, and she paid for everything so i bought her something she badly wanted. i loved the opportunity to relax (it was all very relaxing) and talk. i loved her listening. i loved cosi - i'd never been in one.

when we were waiting for the train back, sam sent me a txt that was simply "oh shit! shit shit shit," and i was unbreathingly gripped by crying-anxiety because she would not answer me back and i sincerely thought something bad had happened. because, you know, something bad has happened lately. it was all fine. i laughed. she had run into an old flame and he remembered her. i felt set straight, shocked back into my priorities. stop being silly.

things will be different from now on - good and clear.

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)

anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
KL 02-11