i feel so damn inexorable

4:54 p.m. x 2010-09-04

currently listening to: "wooden spoon" by zoe boekbinder

much better. better and better. i have moved on to a hazy malaise the origin of which is not immediately placeable. of course i know what the origin is. it all seems so disproportionate and absurd.

and now that it is only the feeling of being sad it won't last. not with everything i'm doing! submissions galore! projects coming to fruition! and three days off next week!!! that is precisely what i need to have him out of my system.

i wonder if he truly wants to be my friend, as in do things together and genuinely get to know one another. i would be up for that. if he would only be straightforward. or else his gestures appear all the weirder.

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)

anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
KL 02-11