is she pretty on the inside is she ugly from the back

4:43 p.m. x 2002-12-09

DROOL [mother]
switchblade symphony

she's been standing in my place
let's go out and slap her face
she's been sitting in my chair
let's go out and pull her hair
yeah you scream and you shout
no you'll never get out
no you never will see what's new
yeah you scream and you shout
no you'll never get out
no you never will see what's new
mother says to stay right here
mother says to stay right here
mother says to stay right here
right here
mother says to stay right here
mother says to stay right here
mother says to stay right here
right here
she's been sleeping in my bed
let's go out and shoot her dead
she's been dancing in my dress
let's go out and make a mess
yeah you scream and you shout
no you'll never get out
no you never will see what's new
yeah you scream and you shout
no you'll never get out
no you never will see what's new
with you
iridescent eyes of the seahorse cries
treasures she loves others despise
a shooting star shan't fall very far
dim fireflies held in glass jars
april showers bring may flowers
dazzling dust tossed in wind gusts
the trap door is open - the window half closed
the tapesty curtain vivaciously grows
iridescent eyes of the seahorse cries
treasures she loves others despise
a shooting star shan't fall very far
dim fireflies held in glass jars

mother says to stay right here
mother says to stay right here
mother says to stay right here
right here
mother says to stay right here
mother says to stay right here
mother says to stay right here
right here
tell me what's new with you
yeah you're that girl
tell me what's new with you
yeah you're that girl
is it her or is it me

this is the way i scribble lyrics i like in my notebook...enjoy...

...IMAGINE THERE'S NO HEAVEN... © once upon a time i could love myself © it'll come down and look you in the eye the way you're gonna go with no place to die © picture yourself in a boat on a river with tangerine trees and marmalade skies somebody calls you you answer quite slowly a girl with kaleidoscope eyes © watch me lose her © somebody please stir up the sky emotionally so it may cry © forgive me all his pain...i see you shine like a diamond and curse us all goodnight © i'm dying day by day but no one cries for me they'd rather slit their wrists...but they won't watch me bleed © when i am queen i'll have my way i'll make it drowning dolly day and all the tears that we have cried will suck back in our eyes © i'm not afraid of looking ugly i couldn't care what they say i'm not afraid of happy endings i'm just afraid my life won't work that way © she's hanging in the blossom tree babydoll just bleeds for me © hey baby won't you wave goodbye as you go off to fuck your weird red light...as you dance to the sound of a suicide © rhiannon rings like the bell of the night wouldn't you love to love her © moons and junes and ferris wheels that dizzy dancing way you feel when every fairy tale comes real i've looked at clouds that way © i tell you everything i hope that you won't tell on me i give you anything i know that you won't tell on me © he's so candy my downfall melts in my mouth till he's nothing at all © lost and lonely you just like heaven © one more special message to go and when i'm done then i can go home © what goes on in your mind i think that i am falling down © if you close the door the night could last forever leave the wineglass out and drink a toast to never oh someday i know someone will look into my eyes and say hello - you're my very special one but if you close the door i'd never have to see the day again © i find it kind of funny i find it kind of sad the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had © and i cannot compete with you... © say hello to my little friend the world is getting ugly and we did it again © it's all fucked - you've blown it you took that away from me © bloody nose on white dress vanilla girl is in distress sullen son humid sky feel so sick i don't why © what would my life be without pain in me © save me now cause all i am is black © how does it feel it feels blind © i promise not to sell your perfume secrets there are countless formulas for pressing flowers © so i lit a fire isn't it good © the only boy i understand the one ashamed to be a man © did she make you cry make you breakdown and shatter your illusions of love © forget me nots will slit your neck you say you remember but you forget © and the people bowed and prayed to the neon god they made...and whispered in the sounds of silence © why does my heart go on beating why do these eyes of mine cry don't they know it's the end of the world © cause you were from a perfect world a world that threw me away © the knife they used to gut my face in has been out stabbing baby angels in © sugarstar comes down and talks to me she comes to crucify all who believe i am not your ruby degrees and sugar comes from her arteries...i'll be the biggest scar in your sky © i am that girl you know the one who should've died © never speak a word again or i would crawl away for good i'd move away from here so you won't be afraid of fear © and i swear that i don't have a gun no i don't © i heard her screaming like a radio...everything's gone dry like bottle glass scraped across the pavement © jane says i ain't never been in love i don't know what it is © yeah they really want you they really want you they really do © love is all all my soul oh my playground love © up in my arms to late to beg your or cancel it though i know it must be killing time © you're a little late © how to fight loneliness you smile all the time show your teeth till meaningless © soft hair and a velvet tongue i want to give you what you give to me and every breath that is in your lungs is a tiny little gift to me © i must have died alone a long long time ago © when i'm next to your head i see a white heaven's presence © and i don't want the world to see me © and you don't seem the lying kind a shame that i can read your mind © all the lilies bloomed and blossomed wilted and they're shivering i can't stop their withering oh this world is a whore © look for the girl with the sun in her eyes and she's gone © you see the stars with eyes lit up with lies you've got your stories all twisted up in mine © and i'm happy right this tiny second now © polly pretty polly you're guessing about right i've been digging your grave for the best part of your life he stabbed her through the heart and her hot blood did flow and into the grave pretty polly did go he threw a little dirt over her and started for home leaving nobody there but the wild birds to moan a debt to the devil billy must pay for killing pretty polly and running away © let not your hold be so tight she'll return in the morning if you give her the night...is she suffering? © i took her heart and i kissed it clean but she still kicks against me © iím pretty like drugs i load the gun i wax and i wane subject all my pain onto you baby © i will not hold my hand on fire © now i'd pay a high price to feel nothing at all © i know you might say things behind my back you know it's okay i can live with that nice to have a friend just when you need one © nothing is real...

LOVE SONG
jack off jill

whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am home again
whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am whole again
whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am young again
whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am fun again
however far away i will always love you
however long i'll stay i will always love you
whatever words i say i will always love you
i will always love you
whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am free again
whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am clean again
however far away i will always love you
however long i'll stay i will always love you
whatever words i say i will always love you
i will always love you
love you
love you
love you
love you

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)

anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
© KL 02-11