9:39 p.m. x 2003-11-21
really really i'd give anything to be how you are. to be able to repress and deny and pretend to be absolutely positively the opposite of what you are. and then still be able to smile about it.
i hate what i am. you don't hate what you are but you're far, far from okay with it. i'd love to be able to talk about it someday with you. i'd love to be able to talk with you in general. about anything.
i guess. i don't know. anymore.
i'm not connected to anything. i can't feel anything about anyone and they can't feel anything about me.WHY
(((p.s., i love bethany <333 and you aren't a bitch, you are a cupcake)))
if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start