i stagger a breath. i lost your address.

10:58 p.m. x 2005-03-03

i feel like you're all just hovering around right in front of me. that's what those declarations were for, to pull you back into me...i know i'm not going to have you back where you were but it stings to see you there now.

i absolutely cannot go to school tomorrow. i have to, but i can't. i'll be there, though. i'll probably be angry.

i'm sick of being angry. you know why i'm angry, don't you?

because we aren't curled up on a yellow bed in a tiny room in a basement, getting to know each other.

catie was curled up on my legs.

tweak made me cry with a story about creation.

clare and i listened to "never mind the bollocks" and had a marathon conversation.

kara and i were the last to go to sleep. i told her she'd be a rock star and she nodded back excitedly.

and we missed aliya, even then.

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)

anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
KL 02-11