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decide between survival and bliss 11:36 p.m. x 2005-04-09 i will complete a 17000-word work of fiction, NOW. or, within the month.
i rented "sideways" and "vera drake" and i'm very excited that blockbuster has "songs from the second floor". sometimes that shithole surprises me.
i may have to make a rash decision, but...i need a springboard. even if drastic measures get taken, i am on a mission! i cannot let the unpleasant stand in my way! i'm not going to be discouraged even if i must cut off all communication and get my hermit on...things will get done! (now, i don't want to never speak to anybody again, but...i may start speaking in code or something, i don't know.)
the best revenge is living.
i'm so excited i cannot begin to put it into words...i know, it may not be the way i would've liked it to be, but i cannot be flighty and judgemental about it anymore. THIS HAS TO MOVE, HAS TO START HAS TO GET GOING and i have ruined years doing things, way worse things, this is so another level entirely. it's a springboard! it's a door, even if it isn't the palace door, it's a door down the long and arduous hallway to the best place in the world...you'll see me, you'll sure see me when i'm there. if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
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sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc) anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
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