7:23 p.m. x 2005-07-06
i'm pissed oooooooofffff.
i went to work today, when i wasn't supposed to. just for an hour, and then i left. but it made me really angry. tomorrow i go, and i get another paycheck and then i think i leave on friday but i'm not sure. i have no idea now about anything cause i'm not fucking in charge of anything that i do. i'm so impotent and so AAAANGRYYYY.
i'm so frustrated that i could cry, and really everything is going perfectly fine except that i wasn't supposed to be at work. i really just don't want to be at my house, and i really want to be alone. I DON'T FUCKING WANT EVERYONE CONSTANTLY ASKING ME "SO WHAT ARE YOU DOING? WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" and earlier my sister jumped on the back of my chair while i was writing. I DON'T WANT ANYBODY TO FUCKING READ MY WRITING unless i fucking show it to them. she jumped on the back of my chair and i told her to go away and she got all bitchy and i kicked her and we got into a fight, and i pushed her into the door into the room where my mom was sleeping.
i'm an edgy person and i need most of the day to be by myself and to have everything be really quiet. i'm really irritable and i know that. i don't sleep and i'm just trying to think.
if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
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