9:34 p.m. x 2006-02-15
bottomed-out with exhaustion. didn't really cease to motor along or anything like that, just dragged everywhere. i mean...it having been an evening (or month) of some small energy expenditure, o my brothers. so we (clare & i) stopped off at the korova (quizno's) for a nightcap.
i'm the luckiest kid on dland, let me say. i've got clare. i've got jimmy. i've got clare. i've got jimmy. i've got clare. i've got jimmy.
...and yeah, duff and i are friends, and i fucking love the bear. i can't help it. i am a little girl.
and i'm fucking exhausted.
& if i may add an addendum: i hate how all little girls look the same. fuck that. i put a meager shred of thought and effort into how i look and now i want to put forth even less. the thought of seeming calculated now absolutely scares the shit out of me. it's almost midnight. i owe it to myself not to end this night on a flip-out. i have to relax and acknowledge what i have and be happy. in order to do that, i'll probably need to cry about it.
if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
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