You gave me hyacinths first a year ago. They called me the hyacinth girl.

in heaven everything is fine
in heaven everything's alright
in heaven everything is fine
in heaven everything is fine
in heaven
working on living
i'm working on leaving
i'm working on leaving the living
love you more than everything
loved it more than anything
loved everything more than anything
working on drinking
i'm working on driving
i'm working on driving my dreams so
working on living
i'm working on leaving
i'm working on leaving the living
in heaven everything is fine
in heaven everything's alright
in heaven everything is fine
in heaven

modest mouse, "working on leaving the living"

i'm only alive because of what's coming, and not because of anything that currently is. it's pretty visceral. you couldn't really call that suicidal. i wouldn't. i think that i'm hopeful. i'm just not present. and that's how i like it.

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
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sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)