You gave me hyacinths first a year ago. They called me the hyacinth girl.

"WHY ARE WE THE ONLY ONES WHO MAKE SENSE?!"...indeed!

i talked to jonpaul forever the other day, then yesterday talked to amber equally as long, then dan called this morning and then clare. talked to jimmy, duff and JASON last night! holy shit! if you look waaaay back in this diary you'll see jason and i used to be tight years ago. he's been in the area since january and we just both realized. geez. had a very good talk with jimmy, even though he was frustrated...i'm glad he talked about it.

so...if the title of the tool song "die eier von satan" can be translated as either "the eggs" or "the balls" of satan...i don't know...they're both round but sunny-side-ups and testicles still occupy fairly seperate spectrums in my mind. i was just thinking about that.

my aunt's coming to visit me today o.O

i feel very well, i'm really happy. things are returning to normal.

hold your light...
lead me through each gentle step by step
by inch by loaded memory
i'll move to heal
as soon as pain allows so we can
reunite and both move on...

tool, "jimmy"

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)