i think i could last at least a week without someone to hold me

5:47 p.m. x 2006-07-06

i'm getting smacked in the teeth with risidual angst today. it started last night, while i was doing my homework and imbibing in the enigmatic "kaspar hauser". i started crying because sometimes i get very, very frustrated. not with algebra. well...with algebra, yes. i do get frustrated, but not typically enough to cry. i was really frazzled and exhausted and my family and i are not gelling again.

today i felt bad because i had catie over and i was in a state. her birthday is coming up and after the COMPLETE AND UTTER TRAVESTY that was her birthday last year, her jailbait-no-more day has to be spectacular. but i was not on top of it today. i'm amidst braincell-holocaust, i started crying again on the way back from dropping catie off...i'm just not "with it with it".

having to listen to the radio just made it worse. so much worse. but, really...i had a muffin today. and i was so happy to have my muffin. i had it and coffee even though it was after class, i still wasn't all there, so i had more, and i was really glad about that. i don't feel really great right now and i can't ignore that, but i think i'll be back together in no time.

i just get really frustrated.

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)

anybody can be just like me, obviously.
not too many can be like you, fortunately.
KL 02-11