9:30 p.m. x 2008-12-07
currently listening to: "seattle" by the hot toddies
i have another paper to finish and a final to study for.
i'm having a weird time with food and need to step away from the cafeteria big time. it's only open at certain times, and it makes 4:30 in the evening the last time i'm able to eat, which isn't great for someone who doesn't go to bed until 4:30 in the morning. if i have a really enormous dinner, i feel unhappy for having eaten so much, but if i don't do that, i'll start starving around midnight and need to go buy something cheap and unhealthy.
on the one hand, with the food issue...i need to go home. i need to rest and relax and do some things for myself. on the other hand things at home with my friends aren't bubbly, exactly. i don't know if i'm mentally prepared to step into that.
so much of the time i feel like i'm on a different page that i can't do anything for anyone. i don't want my biases and experience to color theirs.
nor do i want to write another paper.
if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start