You gave me hyacinths first a year ago. They called me the hyacinth girl.

currently listening to: "god only knows" by the beach boys

CHRISTMAAAAASSSSSSSSSSS

miss macintosh, my darling by marguerite young
the wavering knife by brian evenson
great granny webster by caroline blackwood
valerie and her week of wonders by vitezslav nezval
coming to writing by helene cixous
archy & mehitabel by don marquis
altmann's tongue by brian evenson
ava by carole maso
break every rule by carole maso
burning your boats by angela carter
miss lonelyhearts & day of the locust by nathaniel west
who's afraid of virginia woolf? by edward albee
dubliners by james joyce

plus "gosford park" (altman), "nightwatching" (greenaway), "the dicreet charm of the bourgeoise" (bunuel), "wings of desire" (wenders), "last year at marienbad" (resnais) and "brand upon the brain!" (maddin).

some badly needed black turtlenecks. replacement typewriter necklace (AT LONG LAST). new tights and heels. still forthcoming are new flats. all my shoes are depressing looking, old and unwearable. aaaggghhh.

i WILL have this "prufrock" paper finished before i go back to school! at least finished in the way of having all eight pages written! even if they must be rearranged and edited! JUST! FUCKING! WRITE IT!

i still have to do a ten page one on something else completely! and i've not been especially into a single idea i've come up with! i wanted to do a good, thorough analysis of a text but i don't have the time to do a good job on that - i think that i will just write one on john hawkes, because he intrigues me very much, and because he headed the literary arts program at brown from its creation until its death. but my professor has done a great deal of research on him and i'm sure is expecting a lot out of me. UGH. and it's all i have left to do! besides my final edit on my story! which i need to devote time to! it will all be DONE WITHIN THE WEEK. i have all my heavy shit out of the way! no more novels to read! no more lab quizzes! no more books to design! nothing! nada! BRING ON THE END! my last semester!

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)