10:10 p.m. x 2010-07-13

currently listening to: "brand new shoes" by she & him

my brother almost killed me (and himself). he's not been sleeping and we are alone in the house right now so he has to do all the driving. there's something more up with him than usual and it's off-putting.

i'm in awe that if i want it will be long before i have a job interview again! i'm so lucky i didn't have to zip around everywhere in pursuit of dead ends. one friend of mine had 90 interviews after graduating and did not get one. amanda has a very taxing job with troubled children for which she gets school credit and physically could not maintain another job but is trying to find one to pay for her wedding next year. she was interviewed for a line cook position at a diner and they did not hire her. absurd. her tenacity stuns me.

i applied to an internship in town with the local ballet company and while their email back was enthusiastic and they said "you will hear from us" by a specific date, i have not. i wish they would contact me. it is unpaid but i'd get to go to all performances free! and it is one professional outfit, too.

some friends are all ready asking for copies of my novella. i'm staggered.

if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
JOBJOBJOB
interviewinterviewinterview
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start
(& etc)