all the leaves are brown and the sky is grey, i've been for a walk on a winter's day
1:49 a.m. x 2007-09-28
i should be finishing studying for a test i have in the morning. i can't sit down and concentrate. i'm sick with rage. i keep working myself up to tears. i feel like shit. all the things that i have rigged up in my head for positive reinforcement are really working against me. this fucking sucks.
I NEED RECIPROCITY.
i want to commit seppuku right now and drag my entrails all over the floor. don't misread me, i feel fucking miserable. i am so angry. i can't fucking take this shit.