all right, my anger has been sufficiently subverted. to clarify, i am not angry (i think it looked that way, i don't know) with anybody. i just have a lot of blockage. it would make me feel better to have people know i had something very bad happen to me over vacation and that a) i'll talk about it when i'm ready and b) it's manifesting itself in assorted crazy ways, so, you already know to beware me.