everything feels like throwing myself down the stairs
11:41 p.m. x 2008-02-18
that was embarrassing. had i known i wouldn't have even...ugh...i will slap myself in the face someday if i say now that speaking to you is different. when it actually is or we can't talk anymore i'll regret bitching now. but that felt weird suddenly to know you were talking with me and...
let it die and get out of my mind
we don't see eye to eye
or hear ear to ear.
i know what i miss but i can't put it into words. it's funny how words are about it for us, but i can't talk about it at all.
i'm going to go wallow in a memory. how stupid. it's been a long, rough day.