9:29 p.m. x 2003-06-05
today, a few lovely things happened. first - i escaped school after second block ^-^ and went to see my new doctor. he reminded me of nicolas cage in "adaptation", except a bit more chipper. according to him, my other doctor grossly miscalculated how bad my problem was (i will HURT HIM
...) and my next surgery will be quite easy and painless ^-^. well finally
following that, my dad took me to the record store where i stood before the aural sea of sad "billboard" mediocrity and decided to dive in without a life jacket. i don't concider myself an indie snob...i've been stripped of that right after repeatedly singing "fighter" in the bath tub...i'm just overly critical. even with things i enjoy. as i stood before the "new release" rack, i spied a little pale chipmunk-looking girl peering from behind the brian hugh. revenge of evanescence!
it found its way into my hand and followed me all over the store, as i tried frantically to find something else i'd rather hear. i searched and searched to no avail - besides, it was in my price range, even though i ended up being treated @_@.
to those of whome enjoy evanescence: hey, more power to you. i don't hate them - obviously, i bought the cd @_@;;;, but i cannot stand the lyrics. i suppose it's just the emotional state i've happened to stumble blindly into over the past few months - but she sounds so *hopeless*. as in, "i'm fucked - it's over!" hopeless. i hate that. i'm getting to hate that more and more. this young woman is their saving grace, though - she can "sang", but she needs a lyricist team behind her. some of the stupidity hurt my ears...even on my favorite track ("tourniquet").
"i'm pouring crimson regret" - okay, i'm sorry, but - SOMEONE COME UP WITH A MORE CREATIVE EUPHEMISM FOR "BLOOD"! i'm so sick of "crimson this" "scarlet that" - blood is blood and blood is interesting enough in it's emotional symbolism to be described as something other than "red" and "bad".
"imaginary" is alright, though. i'll give them that - i enjoy it immensley and it has the best lyrics on the album. i'll admit though that they are strong musically - there is talent in that band, no question.
the lyrics are just mediocre and that makes my brain itch. i'm a lyrics person and a compulsive critic - it's nothing personal.
*slaps herself* - did you see what i just did? i apologized to an imaginary third party in MY DIARY. i told you i'm the world's doormat. ooo...HOORAY! it's back!!! jackoffjill.com has returned!!!!!!!!!
i'm ordering the humid teenage mediocrity tomorrow, damn skippy...it'll be a nice pickup...but alas, i have only tomorrow and monday then i'm technically done avec grade dix ^-^ !!! so i shall need a new reason to be stressed and need to shop...*ponders*...
while i think of that - you are going to check out joj.com and contemplate what you're going to buy me for christmas.
if anybody should ask i'm going to a seminar
pieces of the moon
sensitive heart, you're doomed from the start